Well, I thought it might be good to update on what my plans are and what is going on in my life thus far. Not that anyone cares - I just thought that I'd share my thoughts and my ideas with you guys. All I hope is that you read this and give me some feedback? Ha-ha. #1:
Since I last updated, a lot of things have happened to me that I think are significant to mention. I got a job in early June, which I'm happy about; unfortunately, it's at McDonald's. It sucks, but money is money - right? Anyway, I also got a volunteering job at the library down the street from me to keep the rest of my time occupied.
Also, it's been over three months since me and my boo have started dating--which is a good thing. I seriously will break down if this relationship doesn't last longer than my last two and will probably give up on relationships for a while if this one fails. But, I know this one may last a little over a year and that's a good thing then.
Although, let's not say that. It's bad luck to be talking about how long you think the relationship you're in is going to last long.#2:
As I was scrolling through my newly remade personal Tumblr, I found out that my second ex-girlfriend has a new girlfriend. Don't get me wrong, I'm really happy for her and that she moved on from me. When I read about it on her page, I felt sick to my stomach and thought, 'I wasn't good enough for her - even if I bought her things, wrote her poems and showered her with love - I wasn't good enough.'
Then, after talking to my current boyfriend (Caleb), he explained that I was feeling guilty and that I should bury that part of my heart that wants her back. I did what he said and occasionally, the thought of talking to her and revealing myself to her will cross my mind. But, I squash that idea -- all I know is that I'm happy for her, I really am.
It hurts from time to time and when I tend to catch myself thinking about her, so I just banish all thought of her from my mind. Then, I return to normal and I go back to what I was doing originally.
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Well, that is all that I have to share with you folks! Thank you for reading and leave your feedback if you want (or can), I'm off to bed seeing as it's past 2 in the morning where I am.
Love you guys!